My name is Liam and I am an apprentice starting college. I’ve already been to college once, and the only difference I feel between college and sixth form is that the lecturers try to get more work done in an hour. Like time is a more precious commodity. I don’t have any real work experience because I’ve been told for a long time that I must go to university, which was fine I guess. It’s like burning money you don’t own; if you look beyond the fire, there’s not much else other than £150 rents to sleep in what someone would call in their house a “spare room”.
Previous experience with computers is just general experience. I’d build computers, and have some level of interest in them, but I never thought I’d be doing anything in IT. Doing Computer Science at University was a no-go: I didn’t do a Maths A-Level. The prerequisites to take this as a career in any form other than a merit-based IT apprenticeship were non existent.
I mainly work on the ticketing system right now. Here’s the problem with the team I work with in my apprenticeship, everything I could do I need to be taught to do. There’s not enough free time with any of the other team members, and I have no development experience, but I’m learning quick. Partly because I feel I need to, a level of lack of self-confidence, but I hope its due to my feeling I should be really helping out. I just like to help.
What do I want to gain? No idea. I used to plan my life out, but as soon as that course hit a pothole, I’d jump out the drivers seat and roll away from that path. I’m a meticulous planner, and the problem is that when things don’t go the way I have replayed in my head many times, I struggle to react. There’s a lot of things I can do at the end of this apprenticeship, but the over arching question when considering all of them are “do they really matter? do they make a difference in a meaningful way?”. I shouldn’t be thinking that way, only warlords and political campaigners have that kind of self-righteous outlook that they can only change the world in their own design, but it’s the start to having aspirations.